Things I must learn to live:

1. Rely on yourself & no one else. At least you only hav one person responsible to & answerable for.

2. Prioritize your family. You can nver replace them.

3. Be responsible. Learn to stand alone, (quite hard but i know i can do it).

4. Forget the past, you have the present to face..
5. Stand firm! They may hurt your feelings but never let them break you.

6. Never mind what others say about you. You know yourself more than they do.

7. Accept changes! There's no such thing in life that is constant, except change.

8. Dont torture yourself on things you have done. Move on and learn from it.

9. Always check your priorities in life.

10. Live life as if it's your last.

My 1st spinal anesthesia

Just a product of being bored, so i decided to blog...
Dec. 18, 2007: my 1st lumbar puncture..twas a successful one..haha..more LPs to go!

At last, im already done...well, i guess...im back to the "old" me...i mean, not on an autistic mode..hahaha! i thought it was impossible to finish my work on the date that i had set...why did i think it was impossible? Well, i never really like hematology in the first place. Unluckily, the topic that i'll be reporting was about AML, haha...it was really a hema thing. At first, doing that thing was really a punishment for me. Anyways, as what everyone had said, everything happened for a purpose. It had made me more patient and determined. One thing had just entered my mind, "if others can do it, why cant I?" Defy the Impossible!

There's no such thing as constant except for change...
But it so sad sometimes that these changes that are happening to our lives are the one that causes pain..sometimes we can easily cope, but there are also times that we wished thing havent change..coz those things that were already part of our life, had somewhat made us whole...and it's hard to let it go..
Life is like that, things just come and go, they touch our lives, leave marks on our hearts, make us realize our worth, and make us feel complete..

What keeps me going?

Feelin' so bored and depressed these past few days...i dont know if it's hormonal imbalance or it's PMS.. I've been searching for the answer to my question..what keeps me going? Im 100% sure of my choice and that's to become an MD..no question with that..
But lately, im beginning to ask myself..what keeps me going? What if this is not the kind of life that i wanted?
....what really keeps me going? For now its my family, my dream, and maybe because im in a point of no return..

just make the right choice!!

Its a human nature that we always follow what makes us feel GOOD. What we dont realize is that some things that pleases us can hurt other people. So though it is painful, I would rather follow and choose what is humane. I would rather be RIGHT. Because as long as I go after what is right, I know that I am not compromising other people.

The First Cut Is the Deepest

Holding On or Letting Go?

To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more.

“Love is holding on, fighting for what you feel but sometimes love is letting go, setting free knowing he will be happy if you do”

The hardest part with letting go though is you just wake up one day and realize that all your efforts and everything you have valued through your relationship had been vanish in just a blink of an eye and it’s just too painful to endure. It's too late already and I think letting go also entails a lot of "what ifs".

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring; it means I can’t do it for someone else.

I am the one
Who believes in all that you say
I am the one
Who never wants to define herself
I am the one
Who's parallel, upfront, behind
I am the one
Paddling like crazy through the night

Refine, old time, colourblind
Big sign, do time, doesn't rhyme
A lot, to much, standing tall
And I'm crying in the valley:
“I shall never, ever fall!” and

People are people
And I feel so strong
People are people and I'm
Going on

I am the one
Who stirs it up everytime
I am the one
Who never know how close she is
I am the one
Who'd rather be dead than confess
I am the one
Trying to be good, wanting to be bad and so on

Excess, temptress, big mess
Phoney, lonely, it's a test
Be still my heart, don't you fail
And I'm crying on the stagefloor:
“I will always prevail!” and

I'm going on…