Saturday, April 28, 2007

well i'm just a little bit nervous...another step... another stage i'm going to face...3 days from now, im going to start my PGIship...i know, i'm already familiar with the environment as well as the people i'm going to work with...i know, i'm not the only one who's feels, a little bit nervous..


Monday, April 23, 2007

times of refreshing

sunset...beach...a peaceful place...i guess it was a perfect place for clearing up my mind after toxic life inside the hospital, though i'm already used to it...

well, i guess it must be the place, that had made me silent and think about my were right doc! it's a good place for pondering...everything were so calm, as if time runs so slow, that i must not be in a hurry...that i'll take one step at a time...

seeing the sunset on the beach always made me sad, for some reasons and i dont have to elaborate on it... but this time, it was not... it was a time to refresh, recollect, and renew my mind and time for teary eyes and heavy heart, i guess it was already swallowed by the waves...hahaha

Monday, April 16, 2007


Graduation day was finally over…I know this is not the end but merely the beginning of the fulfillment of my dreams…

Years spent on the 4 corners of MARTS were finally over ... time really fly so fast, that we are now about to face the real world of medicine, though we were already exposed to it for almost a year during our clerkship…

As I was walking in the aisle, I can’t help myself but to think back on the days or years were everything was so far of reach…I admit, I don’t belong to the upper class…I am just an average student…hmm with autistic personality .. Haha …all I have was a very supportive family, ambitious dream, friends, and God.

At first I really don’t know where I’m heading for… at first I thought I was called to become a missionary (my close friends knew it), but one of my friends told me, isn’t it the most perfect way of touching the lives of the people…so that was it…

Medicine was not that easy…I know all of us had our ups and downs; we’ve created our own defenses just to survive, built new friendship that had somehow made us a better person; underwent trials that have made us strong; experienced circumstances that have somehow test our personalities and had somehow made us think to give up; there maybe broken relationships, sacrifices… But I know, it was worth the race…

I’m so blessed and feel lucky for choosing this arena…I thank God for letting all these things happen into my life…without Him I am nothing!

To my family especially to my parents:

I have gone through so many different stages, changing ideas and goals, while searching for the right kind of life for me..

You were always ready to help me at all times. It must have seemed like I would never follow one straight path…

Now that I know what I’m doing and where I am heading, I can only show you my extreme appreciation for your support and love by being true to all the ideals and values that you have taught me…I WILL LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU FOREVER..

To my friends:

I thank you for being there all the time… from my lowliest and to the happiest point of my life, you’re always there… I’m so thankful for accepting me without conditions…the friendship you had offered is precious treasure I can never exchange for something…whatever we have shared, it may be bad experiences or good ones, all those times were worth to be cherished, I have no regrets or whatsoever for knowing you all…congratulations guys! We still had a long, long way to go…so many trials that will test the strength of our friendship, but I believe what we have is enough to surpass it…God bless us all!

To our mentors:

Thank you for imparting the knowledge; for believing in us though sometimes we don’t give our best; for pushing us beyond our limits…thank you…

Friday, April 13, 2007

Wednesday, April 11, 2007


Just for today I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle all my problems at once. I can do something for twelve hours that would appall me if I felt that I had to keep it up for a lifetime.

Just for today I will be happy. This assumes to be true what Abraham Lincoln said, that "Most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be".

Just for today I will adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires, I will take my "luck" as it comes, and fit myself to it.

Just for today I will try to strengthen my mind. I will study. I will learn something useful. I will not be a mental loafer. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.

Just for today I will exercise my soul in three ways:
I will do somebody a good turn, and not get found out; if anybody knows of it, it will not count.
I will do a least two things I don't want to do--just for exercise.
I will not show anyone that my feelings are hurt; they may be hurt, but today I will not show it.

Just for today I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress becomingly, keep my voice low, be courteous, criticize not one bit. I won't find fault with anything, nor try to improve or regulate anybody but myself.

Just for today I will have a program. I may not follow it exactly, but I will have it. I will save myself from two pests: hurry and indecision.

Just for today I will have a quiet half hour all by myself, and relax. During this half hour, sometime, I will try to get a better perspective of my life.

Just for today I will be unafraid. Especially I will not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful, and to believe that as I give to the world, so the world will give to me.

Monday, April 09, 2007

Sunday, April 08, 2007


Clerkship had already passed, all I can say is that it was worth the time and tears... With my 1 year experience inside the hospital, I feel that 5 years have added up to my age... What I mean is that, it had made me mature…

April 1…marked the changed of my life. Whew! I was really scared and somehow confused. Confused? Yep! A little bit confused… I don’t know why at this point of my life I questioned myself if I was really unto this field of endeavor…but something is pushing me to go on…

First 2 weeks in IM rotation was full of adjustment and crying times…it was a test of my whole being…but as days went by, when adjustment period was over, everything runs smoothly, though I have collected piles of extension…but it was on this rotation that have awaken me to be more responsible to every actions I make…

With the bulk of patients they have been receiving every day, I really salute to the residents on how they have managed the patients...Just imagine, when the clock strikes at 5:00pm only 2 medical residents on duty will be left inside the hospital…one will be manning the E.R, the other is in-charge of the ward not only the ward but also the ICU, and the referrals from other department…wheeew!!! Where do they get their energy!!!

Here comes Community rotation…a test of being independent…it was on this rotation, that I have learned to be independent…it may be a city away from where I reside, but I have come to taste a life living away from my family... it’s not just about living away from home that have made me more responsible with my actions…it was the responsibility given to me/us to be a doctor to the barrios…it was fun yet I have to be more careful with my actions and most especially in giving medications…community rotation was full of adventure, fun, and life…but one thing I can say, being a doctor? We can never run away from responsibilities…

Surgery…back to hospital life! After 2 months break…here we go again! A test of my dexterity…I admit I really found a hard time handling instruments using my left hand…but I enjoyed suturing…a 2-month rotation in surgery had enabled me to enjoy the life of being a surgeon, the life inside the O.R...Being a surgeon was not that easy…just imagine, the life of the patient depends on your hands…just one wrong move during the operation, then the life of the patient is a disaster…

Pediatrics…a mini IM, as the past rotators may call it…yep! Quite the same…but what made it so different is that you can never extract history from children, we’re lucky if they they’ll answer our questions…that’s why the participation of the parents is very helpful. What made the pediatrics rotation interesting is that they are not that complicated compared to adults…?

Minors….quite similar to surgery, but they are now more focused on their areas of specialty…I admit, this was less toxic compared to my other rotations but cases were so interesting…it was only in this rotation were I had stayed in the O.R for about 5 hours... I admit, I don’t like staying at the O.R for too long… for me 2 hours is enough…I don’t know, maybe it’s because I easily got asleep during the procedures…but don’t get me wrong! I really had a great time…

OB rotation… tests for my adrenalin…a from duty status is a from duty status…laya gd c rhea!!! Well, OB-Gyne rotation had made me stronger…after a bad experience…I learned my lesson and that is to be more careful… I really found a hard time gaining my confidence…again the feeling of quitting sunk in again…but someone made me realized, things that are happening to me are just instruments…in order for me to be more careful and responsible…I was so grateful to the residents for helping me to conquer my fears….” A new baby born signifies how beautiful life is, despite the difficulties, that life must be cherished and enjoyed…”

All I can say, clerkship is fun and worth to be remembered!